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2009-08-06T20:23:00.000+08:00

I've moved!

www.highflyingangel.onsugar.com

goodbye blogger!

2009-07-28T20:32:00.001+08:00

Pardon for the lack of updates.

There's something i need to let out in this post.

Earlier today, while on the bus, i came across an RTA involving a pedestrian and a lorry. I did not witness how the accident occurred however i saw the victim, a guy, lying on the road at the traffic light junction and a lorry which was stopped beside the victim.

As it was almost 1800 hours, there were a lot of vehicles heading towards and from PIE as well as pedestrians who were crossing. A LOT. But only three people actually had the heart to come to the victim's aid. The rest, were all gawking, some even took out their mobile phones and recorded the incident. Better still, i saw a few taking down the lorry's plate number, 4D perhaps? There were obstructions as the lorry was stopping in the middle of the junction. The bus i was boarding had difficulties driving through.

So, these people, be it pedestrians or motorists, just squeezed their way through, zooming or dashing passed by the victim, as if he was just a dead cat. None lift a finger to help.

Fuck it man. If i were to be dispatched to that incident, i would definitely f the passersby. Don't gawk. Gosh. It really pissed me off. To the motorcyclists, what if you are the one who was lying down there? And all the people around did nothing but stare?

People can just be really selfish, only thinking about themselves. Taking other people's misfortune for their own advantage. Cb.

I don' t know why i'm so mad. Haha. Maybe its also because of PMS. Haha.

K lah, till the next one. Soon i hope.

Bye!

2009-07-07T23:44:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHT!!!!!!!!! I can upload pics already! Guess i won't be moving after all! Hahaha...

I'm enjoying life right now.. Haha.. Will spend this four months well while it last.. Kekeke..

Can't wait for pay day man.. I want to go shopping! I badly want that black jacket and the maryjane dress!

Money! Money! I need you!!!

2009-07-07T01:12:00.001+08:00

What the fuck is wrong with this bloody blogger!

2009-06-27T01:46:00.008+08:00

Went to the library again yesterday with nishah... I'm glad that nishah has picked up reading as a hobby now.. :)

This is what i borrowed...

And i recommended nishah to read The Babysitters' Little Sister series! Goodness they still have these in the library..! I remember reading it when i was in primary school, no kidding!

Yup2 she borrowed all of it.. Partly cause i want to read it too! Haha!

And i was sooooo happy i found the Sweet Valley Kids series too! Hahahah.. No pictures of it though.. Hahaha...Well there's still a kid in everyone!

After which, i brought nishah to Starbucks to satisfy my cravings! Due to the 'economoney' crisis i faced, i have not been drinking my favourite caramel macchiato for ages lah! heheh..

Yummy!!!!

Got milk? Haha...
Nishah had java chip.. double yummy!
Goofing around in the bus... Rosak ni budak!

At night, my parents, nishah and i plus my cousin and family, went to our favourite hang out place now.. hahah..KTMB... The railway station.. Seriously, you would find us there every weekend.. provided i'm not working...

After makan, we jalan-jalan at East Coast Park... Before heading back home!

Nishah and my very naughty nephew, Rifqi!

So that's it for now.. Till the next post! :)

Ta-ta!

2009-06-25T13:37:00.000+08:00

"If there's nothing missing in my life.. then why do these tears come at night...."

2009-06-25T01:10:00.002+08:00

Why am i having this stupid thought? I can't get it out of my head. Its driving me nuts.

I wish i can _________________________________. But haiz...... :(

2009-06-23T10:54:00.002+08:00

Burp!! Just had a yummy breakfast with my mum.. :) Its nice to see that she is feeling better now.. My dad too.. Both had fever because of me.. hehe... I passed it to them.. Sorry.... kekeke...

My dad is at BBDC (belok-belok driving centre, read: inside joke! haha) taking his TP. All the best to him! I hope he pass but then again, if he does pass, i'm sure i won't be driving my miss picanto as much now.. wakaka...

one more shift left before i say goodbye to cck npc for four months.. hehe... i know i will miss my teammates.. especially my kakak Siti and the two gay boys.. hehe.. :) :) :)

i have no plans today.. maybe will finish up my two new novels and then go jogging in the evening...

till the next one ppl... muacks! :)

2009-06-19T22:25:00.005+08:00

Bowling was cancelled as it was a full house. The three of us decided to watch "I love you, man" instead. A very vulgar but hilarious comedy. For the guys, if you are straight, i rather you don't watch it! Astagfirullah, bismillah! (Read: inside joke! right mamis?)

We had donuts + bubble tea before the movie..

After the movie, we had dinner at Sakae Sushi.. Photos are taken from Di's camera.. We had a hearty meal... Had 'fun' trying the raw salmon... Heheh.. Fear factor moments.. Lets do it again shall we ladies? *evil laughter*

Initially, we planned to go to Esplanade.. However thanks to Ain M, we stopped by Diva and I ended up spending S$40 on hair bands! Crazy or what! Hahah... Never, ever, bring me to Diva... I can go mad there...

I love accessories!!Lets go shopping again soon! :):):)

Till the next one!

Muacks!!

2009-06-18T20:22:00.004+08:00

Its good to be on leave. I got to do things that I have not been doing for quite some time.

1. Wash car. Checked

2. Clean my closet. Checked

3. Jogging. Checked

4. Reading. Checked

Hehehe.

Speaking of reading, I have completed 2 malay novels and 1 english novel. And today, I decided to go to the library again to borrow more books! Its like killing two birds with one stone, reading + enjoying the air con at the same time.. the weather is tsk tsk tsk, F**KING HOT!! So.. the library is the best place to relax now.. haha...

Since i'm bf-less this week (and also the upcoming weeks, hehe!) , nishah had to accompany me.. But it was still fun though.. I mean i brought her out a lot of times already ever since she was a toddler.. so its nothing new actually.. Hehe..

Like real only.. Haha...

My real BFF. Heh.

Meeting the Mamis tmr for a bowling session! Can't wait!

Till the next one!

Muacks! :)

2009-06-15T20:22:00.002+08:00

Saw bf today at hta.. Pity him lah cause his current FI was my sadistic FI. FI Azli was being er.. him.. hahah.. was shouting away.. hahah... Guess bf would be having a hard time inside there..

The weather was scorching hot during IPPT.... I can't be bothered cause i know i won't pass..How to pass if i didn't train hard enough.. Will be taking again at the end of the month... Need to pass at least.. After that, i have few months to aim for silver till the end of FY.. I mentioned in my tag board that i got silver timing for my 2.4 right? Hahaha actually i only completed 4 rounds...

15 MORE DAYS! Woohooo!

2009-06-14T20:01:00.002+08:00

I think my dad and bf look similar. Must be the hairstyle or rather lack thereof. Haha! Mangkok!

Sending bf to camp earlier today reminded me so much about my time in camp. I miss my R5. :)

Good tour last night. Woohoo. So can't wait for July. Away for four months and my friends told me that i would have fun there. Holiday, they claimed. Haha. We shall see! July, come quick!!

Alright, will blog again soon. Must rest now. Tmr its indiapapapapatango again! Shucks!!

2009-06-12T19:00:00.011+08:00

Went to the doctor (again) today.. The doctor said that I am under a lot of stress.. Which resulted in what I'm suffering now.. I shall not reveal what it is.. Sorry :) All i can say is that life has been hard for me these recent months.. Hope it would all be over soon... Only bf and family members know about this...

I hate looking at myself in the mirror... The dark rings and eye bags are getting worse by the days.. Lack of sleep, lack of rest, stressed.... Maybe i should check myself in IMH! Hehe...

Check that out. Eye bags in her full glory!!

Make up do wonders!

The reason why i'm putting on a lot of make up lately cause i want to cover up all the flaws. Its really terrible. I prefer not putting it actually.. So now i don't care lah.. eyebags or not.. i will just go out looking like a..

ZOMBIE (EYEBAGS GALORE!!!!)

I spent a lot of days or rather nights, away from home.. Even when I'm not working.. I spent the nights watching midnight movies, exploring NTUC at 4 in the morning, chilling at marina barrage.. hehe.. Haiz... I just want things to get back to normal...

Speaking of movies, this month i spent a lot of money on them.. Haha.. Watched NATM2 three times cause its so fucking funny, Hannah Montana the movie and Monsters VS Aliens...No wonder i'm soooo broke... Hehe...

Last saturday, my family and I went to Wild2 Wet and after which we went for ice skating.. and I officially sucked at it!! Here are the visuals..

I look like a pro right?

NOT!!! Hahaha.. Even BF was laughing at me!

I was struggling behind.. Hehe...

Love :)

Did i tell mentioned that someone had signed on? Yes.. He's now a Sergeant T09***... Heheh... His turn now to undergo the 7 months residential training.. I miss him loads... I guess the next time i see him, he is already a MANGKOK! hehehe...

Make me proud love.. :)

Till then...

2009-06-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

I'm thinking of closing this blog down, can i? hehe.

2009-05-25T14:40:00.014+08:00

This was how i spent my 23rd Birthday. :)

14 May 2009
Venue: HotPark

Bf brought me to HotPark cause I never been there before.. Hehe...

First he surprised me with a card..

Love what was written inside...

The gift...

Yeah he really surprised me...

Its MAC baby! Woohoo! Kekeke...

The Cake...

Cam-whoring session!

Happy Girl! I love what you did! Thank You! :)

15 May 2009
Venue: West Coast Park
Pics taken from Ain's FB

The best theme I could ever ask for, seriously. BBQ + movie under the star... Britney Spears- themed, movie: Crossroads starring Britney... :)

I was sooo touched...

Choosing which Britney photo i want... Hehe..

My pick!

Complete with a nice tiara...

Working hard.. hehe...

The food was great!

My bestest girls!

The cake...

Britney Overload!

The gift...

I like!!!

Hugggsss!!!

16 May 2009
Venue: LC Catering, JB

Actually, not much pictures taken on this day.. Had a family gatherig at the said location... Met up with my favourite cousins... It was really nice..

In the car... Ready to go..

My unidentical twin... :)

My darling.. :)

17 May 2009
Venue: The Rice Table
Pics taken from Aisyah's FB

Rice Table at International Building..

R5 Darlings..

With the best friend and 'sis-in law'... hehe...
I was really surprised lor.. Didnt see it coming... Thanks Gowree

Actually didn't know which camera to smile at.. Too many! Haha!

My beloved squadmates....

18 May 2009
Venue: Spa Elements

Went for a facial and body massage, my brother's treat at Spa Elements located at The Cathay.. The facial was good... Except that the therapist said that my eye bags are quite bad... No thanks to the lack of sleep.. Haha.. The massage was fantastic... I felt soo much better.. Thanks bro!

So thats it... Who needs a big party man when i have all this? Nice surprises with a personal touch.. i love it sooo very much.. Thank you everybody.. :)

Till the next post..

FAVE PIC OF THE WEEK

Dayana is such a genius! Love you babe. Come back soon!

2009-05-17T20:16:00.001+08:00

R5/07 is the best. Period.

Love you guys. Thank you for the nice surprise.

4 down, 1 more to go! :)

2009-05-16T07:26:00.003+08:00

Thank you lovely people for the wishes..!!

The best birthday so far!

On the 14th, Fir brought me to Hotpark (not really sure of the spelling, hah!).. It was very fun.. I love the place, the card, the gift, the cake, the hugs.. the one that touched me most, is the effort.. I thank you for that.. You know that even without all the above, i would still be happy.. :) thank you for everything.. thank you for the support during this difficult period.. ILYSM.. No matter what.. And i'm glad we sorted things out... but but but , must train you how to take pics.. ehehe.. where's my nikon d90 that i want so much hah??? heheheh..

On the 15th, spent most of the day at home.. Received a SMS from Diyana to meet up at West Coast Park two days before.. I was so excited cause I didn't know what to expect.. I knew they had something for me, duh! Heheh.. Was sooooo touched and happy beyond words when they planned a BRITNEY SPEARS-themed party for me!! Complete with a mini BBQ and a movie under the stars! Crossroads starring Britney!! Seriously, only they could think of a theme like this! And its the BEESSSTTTTTT theme ever! They know how much i loooovvveeee britney spears... since sec 1 ok.. heheheh.. thanks babes... love you all to bits.. wish dayana was with us.. it wasn't complete without her...

will upload the photos soooneesst.... tonight off to jb for dinner with family.. tmr R5 meet up and monday would be spa day, sponsored by my bro! woohhooo...

P.S. i finally glad that its over. I'm so grateful to god. This is an experience that i would never ever forget.

2009-05-13T17:44:00.002+08:00

Do you believe in black magic?

So far, from what i know or experienced, only MALAYS commonly used black magic. What a shame. What a disgrace.

I'm not superstitious and initially i don't really believe in these things. I only did when it happened to my own family. Seriously these people who resort to black magic to kill or harm other people are either plain crazy, sick or even both.

I would not forgive that someone who used black magic to harm my family, to the extent that my mother fell sick and suffered a stroke.. Screw these people... And the saddest part, these people who went all out to make others suffer, are your relatives.

Sick. Pissed me to the core. My mum's fine now though. She suffered stroke three years ago and it was the hardest time of my life and i almost wanted to quit school to look after her.

The latest i heard that the same people who harmed my mother are doing the same thing to my uncle and his two small daughters. Fucking shit. Uncivilized people. Call yourself a muslim, yet you do all this?? I hope you rot in hell man.

I always always always believe in karma. Retribution will hit you right back. What goes around comes around. Remember that. Save it somewhere in that stupid brain of yours. But then again, do you even have one?

May god 'bless' you.

On a lighter note,

I'm sooo looking forward for tmr till the 18th... I'm fully booked! Woohoo..

Can't wait to meet up with my R5 darlings. Too bad my partner in crime Fir couldnt make it. I have not seen him for sooo long!

Hint, hint, I'm turning 17th! Wakaka.

P.S. Missing my mami jarum clan! :)

Till the next post.

2009-05-10T01:04:00.002+08:00

So many things to say. Don't know where to begin.

I been staring at this page for almost an hour.

I give up.

Bye!

2009-05-04T14:57:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was by far the hardest day at work for me..

My cousin's funeral was held yesterday and i could not take leave.. but tl gave me time off.. lucky cemetery under our sector.. i put on a happy front when i went to work in the morning and by the time the shift ended, i couldn't take it anymore.. i just wanted to go back asap... at night before i went to sleep, i broke down..

i was stunned that i couldn't see his face for the last time.. i was a little too late.. when i saw my uncle and the rest wept, i too, felt like crying but i don't know how i managed to control my emotions at that time...

the past week has been hard on me.. i don't know how to explain.. been losing sleep for some reasons that no one will ever believed me... what else can i do...

life has been hard..

very hard...

i wish i can go somewhere far.....

that no one could find me....

2009-05-02T20:42:00.003+08:00

My cousin passed away this afternoon.

Very sudden.

Life is fragile, indeed.

Treasure your loved ones.

Rest in peace Ashraf.

2009-04-24T15:23:00.002+08:00

Been sick for the past week.. Started when I fell sick out of a sudden during shift and now I felt much much better.. Its time to get back on track, literally...

Going to train hard for IPPT for this FY... No more taking it in the last minute.. Learn t my lesson already.. Hehe..

Alright, will update more soon.. I hope.. Heh..

Till then...

:)

Night out with the BF.

2009-04-09T17:37:00.002+08:00

Holland V- Burger King - Cold Rock - West Coast Park -

Been eating fast food for 4 days in a row... So much for my diet! Haha!

Kalaoke...

2009-04-09T16:10:00.005+08:00

Here's are some of the videos taken with Dayana during our karaoke session before she flew to NZ!

Please excuse us.. We are no singers! Hehehe! Oh god.. it took me ages just to upload two... To be continued! Haha!

Mum's Birthday

2009-04-08T22:47:00.007+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates.

Been very ~~busy~~ lazy. Haha.

Anyway here's are some of the pics taken during the makan session at Mutiara Hotel in JB to celebrate my mum's birthday. My treat! Good food! Good ambience!

The birthday girl with daddy..

BF was there too... :)

Yours truly...

After which, we jalan2 a bit at Holiday Plaza then proceeded back home and had the best goreng pisang in the world from JB! I've been craving for it and finally got to eat it!

And guess what i gave my mum for her birthday...? Hehehe... I ran out of ideas and i decided to buy her a radio! Since she like to listen to it everytime she's cooking.. Hehehe.. And thanks mama and bf for the gift too!

K, bye!

2009-03-31T16:52:00.001+08:00

BE BACK SOON. TILL THEN.

Commitments

2009-03-19T22:33:00.003+08:00

My second brother got engaged last sun and thank god, it went smoothly although the weather was not so good.. but what matters most is that the ceremony had went well..

there was a minor problem few days before the event whereby the food caterer that we engaged in, had breached the agreement.. i could see that my parents were a bit panicky but thank god, everything was settled.. however, i know for sure that my parents would not engaged their services again..

now that both of my brothers are married or engaged, most of my relatives have been asking when my turn would be... hahah...

there are plans of engagement.. but everything is not confirmed yet.. partly because fir has not started working yet and still waiting to be enlisted in spf as a regular.. i want him to fulfill his duty as a son first.. there were some arguments about this before but i'm glad that we had talked things out...

most importantly, BOTH of us need to be financially stable first... engagement too cost money.. and i can't possibly depend on my parents to fork out money.. its my ceremony, i should be the one spending, not giving burdens to my parents.. even if fir has the money and willing to spend for me, i would still say no..

i am thankful to god that i have fir and i am so grateful that his parents treat me like their own.. I was very touched when his mother told me the other day that she do not want me and fir to break up and that she only want me to be her daughter in law.. i can't thank her enough for accepting me.. not only that, our parents got along so well..

i admit that i have my fair share of mistakes.. i know that i had broke his trust .. i am very sorry... but i'm glad that our relationship is getting better now than ever... i am happier now.. whatever happened in the past remain in the past... i don't want to bring it up ever again.. its a mistake .. i already found the one who i love and love me in return... there's no need to find another one... i was foolish.. blinded...

my relationship is not perfect... and i am not the kind of person who would only blog about how great my relationship is.. or how much i love my bf , you know that kind of thing? i'm just being realistic...

k lah.. i think i babble enough...

heheh..

will post the engagement pics and also the videos of me and dayana soon!

till then..

BYE!!!!

2009-03-19T21:45:00.002+08:00

MISS YOU ALREADY BEST FRIEND.

HOPE YOU HAVE A SAFE JOURNEY TO AUCKLAND.

PROMISE I WILL UPLOAD OUR VIDEOS SOON. WE WILL BE FAMOUS IN YOUTUBE SOON! HEHE.

TAKE CARE BABE. LOVE YOU!

P.S I'M SAVING MONEY TO VISIT YOU THERE! ;-P

2009-03-12T23:30:00.002+08:00

PSA SWIMMING MEET.

"TOUGH" fight..

We got third! Yeay!

The longest and hellish 50m ever!

But i had fun! :)

P.S Will upload our 'concert' videos soon!

Till then!

2009-03-06T23:36:00.001+08:00

Its been a while since we had so much fun like we had earlier tonight.

Happy.

So happy.

143.

2009-03-02T20:41:00.002+08:00

ITS TIME TO PLAY THE RUBBER BAND GAME.

TIRED OF ALL THIS SHIT.

2009-03-02T19:31:00.002+08:00

For two days in a row, i braved myself to drive in the heavy heavy rain whereby i could not even see the vehicle in front of me unless they switched on their lights..

but i have seen clearly how selfish and inconsiderate spore drivers are and how reckless foreign motorist can be.. even in that kind of weather..

so there is no surprise when accidents occurred..

at the end of the day, who's to blame? everyone has a part to play...

on a lighter note...

have i mentioned that i love going to weddings these days?

i just love the sound of 'kompang'.. it gave me this funny feeling in my stomach... in a good way... hahaha...

anyway congrats to my friend azlin who got married to my second cousin! what a small world! :)

wonder when my turn will be? hehehe...

2009-02-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

I know that i am a pain in the a** at times.. But i hope you know that i do really love you.. Very much..

Dayana's Farewell Butterfly Party

2009-02-28T00:16:00.019+08:00

Date: 26/02/2009

Location: West Coast Park

Dayana is leaving for New Zealand in less than a month's time.. So the rest of us decided to throw her a farewell party.. Or rather an advanced farewell party.. Not that we can't wait for her to go! I wish she didn't have to! Its just that our schedules kinda clashed.. Ok ok back to the story...

Planning itself was total fun! The 3 of us decided to have a themed party rather than the normal boring makan session.. And we picked butterflies as our theme!! Hehehe..

On the day itself, I sms Dayana telling her that i would pick her up at jurong east interchange... The night before i even told her to dress up! Hahaha..

So Diyana, Ain M and I met up earlier to prepare for the party!

At about 1830 hours, Ain M and I went to pick her up... Our plan was to tell her that we would be going to Vivo for dinner but we would be going by the small roads instead of expressway because of the jam and along the way, Ain M would pretend that she need to go to the toilet urgently and the nearest toilet would be West Coast Mac! Ahakz!

It did go as planned.. So i pretended to wait for Ain M in the car with Dayana... And few moments later, Ain called and said that she 'needed assistance badly in the toilet!' Hahaha.. Actually Ain M was already at our point and was setting up... By then Dayana noticed something was amiss and I just dragged her to walk with me....

So....

She was surprised! Yeah!!!!! She was the only one that got to wear the crown ok!

We then enjoyed our feast.. Mcdonalds! Yum!

I even danced for them!

Next was cake-cutting.. It was d-i-y cake by us! Yummy!

Next was the gift by us! Made by us too!

And we continued the rest of the night with nothing else but camwhored!!

MADNESS!! And there's still TOOONNNSS of pics!!!

PRINCESS DAYANA

AIN THE PURPLE BUTTERFLY

DIYANA THE ORANGE BUTTERFLY

AIN THE YELLOW BUTTERFLY

We then went to Al-Majlis and met my bf there.. And sent everyone back after that...

It was really fun.. And dayana, we really hope you like it! Cause the party is specially for you.. We love you!!!

Till the next party! *winks*

P.S. Dayana, your turn to upload your photos! hehehe...

2009-02-27T12:51:00.003+08:00

I had a wonderful time being a butterfly last night!

Complete with wings and feelers!

3 butterflies and a princess = madness

super duper fun!

I got to meet my annoyingattimesbutsupercute bf too! Kekeke.

proper updates when i have the photos yah...

Till then,

"arojagfarerotu!!" *butterfly language!*

Flutter away....................

2009-02-25T23:37:00.001+08:00

i miss them alot today.

Sigh.

Along's getting married next month and i can't go. :(

Can't wait for our meet up.

Miss those times.

POLICE SEA SPORTS CARNIVAL - DRAGON BOAT

2009-02-23T11:53:00.007+08:00

Pics taken from Siti's facebook.. again... hehehe...

SUN. SEA. ONE MEDAL FOR THE GUYS. FIFTH FOR THE GALS. FIRST TIME EXPERIENCE.

OVERALL = FUN.

2009-02-20T14:18:00.000+08:00

Things you do when you are bored! Ahakz!

2009-02-10T11:39:00.004+08:00

Someone used to ask me..

"What is your weakness?"

Me: "I am afraid to make mistakes.."

That someone replied: "But by making mistakes then you will learn.."

Me: "I know.. But by making mistakes , people will judge me.."

That someone replied: "Don't care about what others think.. Do not be afraid of making mistakes.. Everyone makes mistakes.. You just have to learn from it.. As long as the mistake you did is not costly.."

I just have to remind myself that.. However what happened recently , do affect me.. Its a minor thing actually, but how that someone, (not the someone above) made it out to be, its really demoralising..

:(

They can say
Anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,
And they can try
How to make me feel that I
Don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams

Cause there's,
There's a light in me,
That shines brightly,
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me
From me

Oh they,
They can do
Anything they want to you,
If you let them in,
But they won't ever win,
If you cling to you pride, and just push them aside,
See I,
I have learned,
There's an inner peace I own,
Something in my soul that they can not possess
So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

Cause there's,
There's light in me me,
That shines brightly, yes
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me

No
They can't take this
Precious love I'll always have inside me,
Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

They can say
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,
Although they do try,
How to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to fall,
Tell me what I believe or loose faith in my dreams,
'Cause there's a light in me,
That shines brightly yes

They can try but they can't take that away from me

Mariah Carey- Can't take that away.

2009-02-08T01:28:00.002+08:00

3 more months before i turn 23...

Yikes!!

Time flies so fast lor......

I still feel 16.. Hehehe...

But seriously, it felt like i just celebrated my 22nd yesterday..

Hmmm... 23.. 23.. 23...

What have I achieved so far?

I already have the job that i wanted..

I already have the car that i wanted..

What else.. What else..

Hmmm...

Next would be my diploma... Hope to continue my studies next year..

Marriage?

Hehehe.

Ask my bf...

I don't want to pressure him... When the time comes, it will come....

But honestly..

My life would be complete only when i got married and have kids..

Then i don't have to think about anything else other than being happy...

Hahah..

Think too much ahead already...

Tsk Tsk Tsk..

Must be the ice latte... I can't sleep now...

Alright then.. I will end here..

Going to think about my dream wedding now..

Ahakz!!

2009-02-07T14:02:00.002+08:00

My ______ is officially crazy.

Sucks. Big time.

2009-01-31T22:36:00.003+08:00

What's up with youths these days?

The way they dress, act and everything, its like getting bad to worse...

Most of them are malay.. Such a disgrace...

I may not be your typical religious muslim girl...

But at least i'm mature enough to know what is right and what is wrong...

I don't drink, i don't smoke and i don't club...

Ok, zouk was an exception... My teammates wanted to go thus i tagged along... Yah honestly, i was curious to know what's clubbing like... But i don't make clubbing as my weekly routine... In fact, i don't even know when i will ever step in a club again... Its not that important anyway....

Anyway....

Was watching Cucuku Sayang the other day.. There was a scene whereby the granddaughter mixed with the bad crowd, smoke, had a tatoo... I candidly asked my daddy, what if it's me who behaved that way.. He kept quiet.... From the look on his face, i know that he is thankful that i didn't turn out like that... :P

Maybe i chose the right set of friends.. Like dayana and ain.. They are the ones who stick with me during my sec sch days... Which reminds me of something....

I was a victim of a bully...

Like seriously...

I was bullied by a classmate throughout my sec sch years... She really made my sec sch life a living hell.. She would ganged up with others and ostracized me... When she got bored, she would find a new target, befriend me again but only to repeat that cycle over and over again...

I still remember how she called me names...

I still remember how she just opened my bag and upon seeing me, she would just throw everything inside my bag on the floor..

I still remember she would confront me in that gangster-like attitude..

I still she would just ripped off my table deco..

She was that mean.. I can just go on and on and on...

The sad thing is that, never once did i stand up for myself...

I guess i was naive, timid, scared to that...

What she did to me really affected me badly.. I became very paranoid.. Always thinking too much... Was afraid to make new friends.. Which explains why i was like a mute in ite...

Sigh...

I guess i went through a lot when i was younger...

Not only in school, but at home, at my first work place...

Everywhere...

It all made me what i am today...

People can call me whatever they want...

Budak kecik lah, itu lah ini lah...

But hey..

You don't know what its like to be me...

And i still have a loooonnnnggg way to go...

Wait wait wait....

Whatever i said earlier, does it even link?

Hehehe....

Never mind...

K lah, till then...

bye!!

IF YOU CAN'T DO GOOD THINGS.. DON'T DO BAD THINGS...

2009-01-31T01:33:00.003+08:00

2005

Boy: I don't have the programme sheet

Girl: You can have mine..

Boy: No thanks

Girl : How do you pronounce this word : allegedly

Boy: Oh its pronounce as this. Asal kau? Nak bodek ngan cikgu eh?

Girl: Ape yang bodek? Merepek seh. *turned away*

Boy: Hahahahaha kau slenge ah...

Girl: Aku ada pinjam buku agama from library

Boy: Kasi aku pinjam ah..

Girl: Ok..

Girl: Handphone aku kena curi seh! Kat johor!

Girl then told the story to the boy and he listened with attentively...

Girl: Aku beli handphone mcm kau tau.. Nanti ajar aku camne nak pakai eh..

Boy: Boleh! No problem!

Boy: Dah lama seh aku tak tgk wayang..

Girl: Kau nak tgk?

Boy: Boleh ah... Nak tgk cerita batman..

Girl: Jom ah tgk sat ni.. Aku teman...

Boy: Kau jangan lambat eh.. Kau lambat aku go ngan ******

Girl: *merajuk* kau nak gi ngan die kau pegi ah!

Boy: Sorry aku lambat..

Girl: Will you stay and watched the fireworks with me?

Girl: You have a gf before?

Boy: Yes but we broke up after two weeks

Girl: Hahahahah...

Girl: Why is it always me talking?

Boy: I prefer to listen *smile*

Girl: I know you treat me as a friend, but i think i like you..

Boy: Can we meet tmr?

Girl: For?

Boy: I need to meet you to talk..

Boy grabbed girl's hand

Boy: K lah lets try it out

Girl: Please don't accept me out of pity or just for the sake of it..

Boy: I did not choose you out of pity nor for the sake of it. I chose you out of respect, love and admiration.. I hope our love lasts forever.. I know my love for you will never fade away...

2009

Girl: Are you happy?

Boy: Yes...

Girl: Are you happy being with me?

Boy: Of course i am..

Girl: What did i do?

Boy: You always make me happy.. You always make me smile... I love you..

Girl: What do you like most about me?

Boy: Everything..

Girl: I said LIKE MOST

Boy: I can't choose.. I like everything about you.. The whole package... Luar and dalam..

Girl: Ok

Boy: Sayang, no matter what i love you, and i think i have proven how much i love you.. you mean too much to me for me to let you go so easily....

I love you too.. So much baby... :)

2009-01-30T14:04:00.002+08:00

Every problems or hardship we faced, it is only temporary....

Cause one day, we will get out of it..

The most important thing is to stay strong....

But....

Its easier said than done.....

I just have to find that strength in me...

And i know when I find it...

I will be able to move on.....

P.S You appeared in my dream last night.....

2009-01-29T20:27:00.019+08:00

Team Alpha KL Trip 20-22 January 2009.

The long-awaited trip. God knows how tired we were before the trip. Their CSSP Project, Covering Team C, My ethic seminar, we were all busy .. But finally, we took a break and enjoyed ourselves there even though there were a few 'dramas' which happened there... So here are some of the visuals... Pics courtesy of Siti, Afzal and Bernard...

Day one

We boarded the bus from Boon Lay Shopping Centre

The journey took about 5 hours.. So to kill time....

We played psp

and blew bubbles

We reached KL at about 1330 hours and we checked in at Berjaya Times Square

And went to have lunch at the Chicken Rice Shop

It was after this that a 'drama' happened.. I shall not go into details.. Anyway, me and siti did our own shopping while the boys had their own plans.... We, malays, then met up in the evening for dinner....

We then walked and walked some more...

till siti couldn't take it anymore and i turned bonkers

we then checked out the hotel's pool

Before we ended the night, abg hadri, siti and I caught a late night malay movie called MAUT. So menginsafkan!

Day two

Woke up at 0830 hours and had breakfast...

After breakfast, the rest of the Malays then went to Masjid India...

I stayed in the hotel to sleep.. and only met up with the rest at noon to go to the theme park!

No prizes for guessing who wanted to take this ride!
Before the crazy shit rollercoaster ride.

After the rides which left most of us dizzied and sicked, we malays went to KFC for late lunch then me and siti went back to our room for some girls talk! :)

At around 2000 hours, we dressed up to meet the rest for dinner...

After dinner, we then proceeded to Zouk....

Where we met hans isaac!

Which left us both very surprised and excited!!

Day three

After breakfast, it was free and easy... And I accompanied Siti to find a gift for her sweetheart...

And ended our KL Trip with a dosage of Starbucks! keke...

Actually there are tons and tons of pics.. Some of which can be viewed at Siti's facebook... Maybe when I have the time, i will upload it in my multiply..

It may looked as though we didn't do much there but seriously, at least for me and Siti, we both had fun...

Looking forward to our next overseas trip!

k, bye!

2009-01-28T14:43:00.003+08:00

Jodoh, pertemuan, ajal maut, semua di atas tuhan...

This may come to a shock to some people, especially my friends..

Firstly,

Fir is a very nice and the perfect bf a girl could ever ask for.. But i guess its fated that i can't be with him and my jodoh is with someone else...

I didn't see this marriage proposal coming... I was really surprised, trust me... Haiz.. But i've thought about it.. I consulted my parents and they agreed... I guess all of this are fated...

I will be getting engaged on the 22 February 2009.. I would definitely invite all my closest friends...

You might be wondering who is this guy? I never mentioned about him in my blog before.. But i think after this, you would be reading more about him.. Fir, i'm really2 sorry....

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Hehehehe...

Lame huh! Heheheh.... I met hans isaac at zouk, kl! He's so hot!

P.S I'm sorry BF. You know i love you! Hehehe.

P.P.S Will update bout kl soon!

AIN IS SO LAME!

k, bye!

2009-01-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

I wish i can just vanish into thin air...

2009-01-25T03:30:00.002+08:00

Happy 10 years of friendship to my two best friends Dayana and Siti Nurain.

We've been friends for a decade now and I thank god that our friendship is still going strong.

I love both of you very much. And diyana, i love you as much k!

Dayana, I cried reading your latest blog entry. I am happy and proud of you but I am really sad cause i know i will definitely miss you so much.

Lets meet up before you fly to New Zealand k...

Will blog again soon...

2009-01-19T11:14:00.002+08:00

I had tons of funs yesterday..

Met up with my mamis besties.. We went to have lunch at Mad Jack before proceeding to Botanical Garden to have a mini photoshoot.. I must say that dayana's photography skill is excellent.. She made us look even more prettier than we already are.. Hahakz! But seriously she's very good.. You're there lah sister! ;)

The photos turned out to be great... Just go to her blog to view the pretty babes, i mean, pics! kekeke... After the phototaking session we went to Dempsey Hill for some ice cream treat and then to Marina Barrage where we had a good talk.. kekeke... It was very fun...

We ended the night with nasi lemak at clementi road... And ain i hope you like the present we got for you.. Sorry a bit late.. hehe...

I love you all lah girls... We should meet up again soon... Picnic potluck yah?

P.S I miss you.

2009-01-14T13:26:00.002+08:00

M.F

I really apologized for this mistake i've done... I guess this is one of the biggest mistake i ever did in my life.. I seriously do not know how to make it up to you.. Trust me, i never want this to happen.. I hate to be in this situation but i guess i'm stuck in it.... Anyway, i really need to thank you for your understanding.. I have nothing but respect for you... I'm ashamed of myself for doing this to you... I'm really really sorry.... I hope the heart-to-heart talk we had yesterday helped us.. I never want to hurt your feelings.. I already explained the situation i faced and i really thank you again for being so understanding, so forgiving... Please give me time and I promise things will go back to normal soon... I'm really sorry... I meant it when i said that my feelings for you never change.. Its just that when it comes to the matter of the heart, its unpredictable.. Sigh.. I'm sorry.. I know i've hurt you deeply...

M.A

I can feel that you are avoiding me eversince i told you that.. I'm really sorry for jumping into conclusions and I have to admit that it was childish of me to scold you in that kind of manner in my previous entry which i had since deleted... I hope you understand that i never want to play with your feelings whatsoever.. I meant every word i say.... Remember when we had the talk about its better to be with someone who loves you more than you love him? I guess i did just that.. I hope you also know that i'm always here for you whenever you need me cause that's what friends are for... Please don't treat me differently just because i'm attached or what... Maybe we should not be as close like last time but nonetheless, i would always be here for you.. I'm sorry if i ever hurt you with my words....

2009-01-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

Selamat Pengantin Baru my dearest brother...

Ain doakan andi dan kak dian berbahagia selalu dan semoga berkekalan hingga ke pintu syurga, insya-allah....

Although sometimes i feel like punching your face (kekeke) i know for sure that i'm going to miss you like hell....

take care newly weds.... Can i have twins nieces or nephews by raya this year? kekeke...

2009-01-09T13:57:00.000+08:00

Some questions has been left unanswered..

I hate it...

2009-01-09T00:04:00.002+08:00

Who knows... 2nd time's a charm?

Pray for our happiness...

I don't want to be with anyone else... I appreciate you now more than ever... Thank you for being loyal and faithful to me even when we were apart...

I thought i could be happier with someone else... I guess i was wrong....

Fir, you're the best.

Ever.

I love you.

I really do.

And i never stop loving you.

2009-01-08T01:13:00.002+08:00

Time check: 0115 am

And i'm still working! k not exactly working but doing some work-related things...

Its going to be a pretty busy month...

And my bro is getting married this weekend...

I am mentally drained out... I can't wait for the team kl trip on the 20th...

k k i need to get back to work now....

till then...

bye!

2009-01-05T22:04:00.004+08:00

SOME OVERDUE PICS.

DATE: 14.12.2008

VENUE: MARINA BARRAGE

HIS 22ND BIRTHDAY.

HOPE YOU ENJOY IT VERY MUCH. :)

2009-01-03T09:38:00.002+08:00

Seriously, i hate being taken for granted. I hate it when people only look for you when they need help or someone to talk to or when they needed company and stuff.. But if they don't, they would just ignore you completely, couldn't even be bothered to reply to your calls or sms, you know that kind of thing?

I think my new year resolution would be, to ignore these people! I felt that i've been too soft-hearted... Not only am i too nice, but i guess i'm STUPID as well.. I realised it now that these people are not worth my time!

Don't look for me when only you need help but set me aside when you are in your happy world. I guess i'm just a nobody to you. Ass.

You are not fit to be my friend!

k,bye!

2009-01-02T14:46:00.004+08:00

MEET UP WITH THE ITE DARLINGS

oops sorry TK... hehe...

Its been a while. Hope to see you guys again soon. :)

2008-12-31T12:42:00.002+08:00

I would have to spend my new year's eve looking for mas selamat while others can have fun going to countdowns and spending time with their love ones...

sucks isn't it...

well what to do... work comes first.. heh...

i can't wait to meet up with my ITE darlings Deb, Liyi and TK tmr! Its been a while.. I'm sure we have a lot of things to talk about!

Anyway, 2009 would be a new chapter..

So many downs in 2008... I can't wait to bid it goodbye....

Hello 2009!

k, bye!

Happy Birthday Siti!

2008-12-28T14:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SITI FATIMAH!!

Firstly, apologies for the blur pics...

Anyway babe... Here's wishing you a great year ahead.. All the best in your future endeavors..

Stay happy and healthy always!

2008-12-22T16:53:00.003+08:00

Hey You...

Congrats on making it to the first round of interview!

I'm so happy for you, really...

I hope you get the job..

Good luck!!

2008-12-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

Wow...

11 more days to the New Year!

Time flies very fast... And its been a year since i first came to CK NPC Team A.... Made a lot of new friends... Seen a lot of interesting things.... But there are still a lot of things to learn.....

I love my team... Most of my team mates are great bunch of people.. Of course there are a few bad apples.. But i can get along well with most of them....

I heard that i would be going to another team next year... The news saddened me a lot.. I don't want to go.... But what choice do i have? I tried not to think about it unless its confirmed... *crossing my fingers*

Seriously with my new hairstyle, i looked like one bloody prc lah! Especially if i don't dress up... Hahaha... Serve me right.... See lah... Do things on impulse again! Haha!

Will not be working tmr instead will be going to DHQ for some filming... No, no, not Crimewatch (I wish!)... Just some videos we have to make for an event next month....

So till then...

Bye!

2008-12-17T20:41:00.002+08:00

I'm crazy.

Without any hesitation, i went into the salon and have my hair..... PERMED!

And right now i look like a poodle...What the hell was i thinking?

The hairdresser said that in two weeks' time the curls would loosen up and it would look nicer, so we'll see about that...

Hahaha...

Anyway, this is the first time i have my hair did without him by my side...

I miss him.

I really do.

2008-12-17T00:00:00.004+08:00

I can't wait to get married after becoming kak siti's model yesterday... kekeke...It was so fun getting my hair done and face made up and everything.. hehehe... If only i got to wear the wedding costumes... hehehe.. I am also interested in taking up the course... Maybe i can check with my dad first and if he allows me, i can consider...

So want to have a sneak peek on how i would look like on my wedding day? hehehe...

kekekeke... yah i know i'm very mentel!

k,bye!

2008-12-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

I want to have one!

2008-12-12T23:25:00.002+08:00

I can't wait to go Jurong Point tmr!

Hahaha... Yes finally it has extended.. More cool shops... And the best part, they have Starbucks too! Woohooo....

I think there is no need to go to town now cause Jurong Point has basically anything and everything... Maybe they should open up shops like bugis street as well then it would be complete! Hahaha.. Add Topshop and Forever 21 as well...

I still remember those secondary school days whereby we would always go JP after school and could just go round and round the shopping mall for hours.. I wonder if JP was already extended then, we could have stayed there the whole day i think! hehehe....

I think Jurong Point is the best heartland shopping mall in Singapore...

So proud to be a Jurong citizen!

kekeke...

Just a lame post!

k,bye!

2008-12-11T11:58:00.003+08:00

Seriously you don't have to wait till new year to start everything anew...

Today on 11/12/2008 will be a new start for me...

First thing first, i will try to scale down blogging about sad, sad thing.. Hmmm I notice that all my recent entries were quite emo... haha... I am sure my readers would be quite bored.... kekeke...

Secondly, its time to concentrate more on work and to improve myself.... I've got feedbacks on how to improve and its time to work on it, not just listen and do nothing..

Thirdly, to spend more time with my closest friends.. Ever since i joined the force, i felt like we have grown apart and i hope we can meet up and catch up often now...

Next, to save up money.. As i am planning to further my studies next year... As well as to send my parents to Umrah.. Insya-allah...

Last, love... I will take it a day at a time.. I used to tell myself that you can't find love.. It will find you.. And also, not to be the perigi who looks for the timba...

Oh i forgot about one more thing.. That is to lose all this extra pounds i am gaining due to all the stress .. Haha.. I eat when I am upset remember? hahah... I would love to get back to the weight when i was in camp... And for the past two weeks i have been exercising almost every day.. at the same time, won't stop eating.. SO HOW! hahaha...

K, till the next post...

Thank you friends for all the support.. :)

BYE!

2008-12-09T23:34:00.002+08:00

Maybe its fated that i would be alone all over again... I won't cry again.. I would be strong.. I know I would be stronger than before.. I don't need to have a boyfriend now.. I'm still young.. For now, i would just concentrate on my career, save up money, make my parents happy, and maybe in four to five years' time i would think of settling down...

I just want to be happy again...

Its time to pick myself up....

2008-11-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

I never said that i am blameless in this relationship.

I know I have my flaws and I have my part in doing some damages to the relationship. I KNOW THAT.

I never said that you are entirely to be blamed for everything. DO NOT PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH.

All i wanted is for us to calm ourselves down and not arguing anymore. THAT WAS MY REASON FOR THE TIME OUT.

GUESS YOU NEVER UNDERSTAND.

And now you're leaving me. GREAT. JUST GREAT.

GO. DON'T EVER LOOK BACK.

If you decided to turn and come back..

SORRY..

I WILL NEVER EVER TAKE YOU BACK.

GOODBYE.

2008-11-30T14:51:00.000+08:00

NO MORE EMO ENTRIES..!!

*toodles*

2008-11-19T16:19:00.002+08:00

i'm bored!!!!!!

There's nothing much to do at home other than sleeping...

I'm sick of Friendster...

I'm getting bored with Facebook..

My MSN is hacked and I can't log in..

I've read all the novels I borrowed..

There's no one to go out with...

Can't drive before 7pm...

Back to work tomorrow..

Such a boring life, I know!!

-.-''

2008-11-19T01:37:00.003+08:00

I don't need you to apologize to me.. What's past is past.. What's done cannot be undone.. I just want you to understand that the whole issue was purely a big big misunderstanding..

I know you have my interest at heart.. I totally understand where you coming from.. Maybe the way you pointed out to me was wrong.. Allow me to explain myself first before jumping to conclusion..

We tend to say things we would regret later.. I don't want it to happen to you..

I already said everything I need to earlier today...

I hope you understand now..

Judge me by my actions, not by what I wear..

Deep down, I'm still the same Nurain you know back then..

Enough is enough already.. I don't have any energy left to argue with you everyday... Its draining me out.. I'm totally stressed out.. Too many things on my mind.. I'm mentally exhausted..

Tomorrow is a brand new day..

Lets just start afresh...

ILU.

P.S. Thanks for the flowers...

2008-11-17T00:43:00.006+08:00

Sometimes
I feel I've got to run away
I've got to get away
From the pain
You drove into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
I think I've lost my light
For I toss and turn
I can't sleep at night

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
Give you all a girl could give you
Take my tears
And thats not nearly all

Baby, baby
Where did our love go?

I know I can never be the perfect girlfriend.. In fact i'm far from being one.. I have my flaws but i'm trying as best as I could.. Please give me time..

I don't need you to say 'I love you' hundred times a day.. I don't need you to buy me flowers, rings or whatever.. I don't need all that.. I just want to be happy.. Can you make me happy?

2008-11-16T14:48:00.011+08:00

Deeparaya 2008! This is the first time I participated and I got to admit that I am quite stiff when I danced.. The last time I danced was 5 years ago! When I was in Sec 5. Keke.. Overall, it was a fun experience.. Even though I had to sacrifice a lot of my time for practice, sacrifice my raya outing, dates with bf, at the end of the day, it was all worth it... Hope to join again next year!

Video courtesy of Nadiah.. Since this video was taken by her boyfriend, most of the part is focused on her.. kekeke... can't really see me.. kekeke.. never mind....

here are SOME of the pics...

Phew! I give up ! Too many pics! I will upload the full album, from rehearsals to the actual day, on my multiply when I'm er, not lazy!! Hahakz!

To think I spend my leave day editing pics. -.-"

kekeke!

k,bye!

2008-11-13T01:22:00.003+08:00

After failing miserably during the past two training shoots and was almost taken out from the team, finally i proved him wrong.. 314 points ok! kekeke...

Steady lah cck! Champion! Hahakz!

Hope to join again next year!

I still have my deeparaya updates.. tons of pictures to upload.. will do so when I have the mood.. So many things to say.. But don't know where to begin...

So till the next post, bye!

2008-11-11T21:48:00.001+08:00

I'M BACK!!!!

I miss this page of mine lah!

Will be back with proper updates soonest!!

2008-09-24T18:42:00.002+08:00

When i see it, my heart really broke.

Gosh.

I guess people do change throughout the years. Maybe i should just move on.

If you can't be bothered, well, so do i.

Read: This post is not about Fir.

2008-09-19T09:06:00.002+08:00

Another one to add to the list of my embarassing moment.

Last evening, i took a cab to work. So when I reached cck, i saw clearly that the fare was S$15.40. I took out S$15 and gave it to the uncle and confidently said to him, "its ok, keep the change.."

like WTF?

I got out of the taxi and for a while I stood along the road and the taxi still hasn't drove off yet. I don't know how, but somehow I realised I gave the uncle the wrong fare and quickly opened the door and handed him 50 cents more.

Me: Sorry2, I thought i gave you S$16
Uncle: Its ok. Its ok. No need.
Me: No, no, no. Sorry2.

I quickly gave it to him and shut the taxi door and walked as fast as I could to npc.

Gosh. I was so embarassed!

I hope he doesn't know I'm a PO. Kekekeke.

2008-09-16T23:08:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry I troubled you time and time again.

I'm sorry I drove to bedok without telling you in advance.

I'm sorry I only called you when I'm at your void deck.

I'm sorry for planning this stupid surprise.

I'm sorry if i had known you were busy, i wouldn't come and disturb.

All i wanted is to make you happy, i guess i failed....

2008-09-15T06:14:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was Iftar with my usuals.. We went to CK Park Rasa Istimewa to break fast.. Overall the food was not bad.. i love the satay gravy though.. Yummylicious... Maybe I would bring my parents to break fast there one day.. After break fast, the seven of us went to Diyana's void deck to chit chat.. No actual plans made cause yan need to book in at 10 so we just sat there and talk..

This coming raya would be a bit sad for us cause for the first time ever, we won't be going out together.. Yan would be going to Taiwan, Raihan would be enlisted for NS.. Only left with the five of us... Sigh, we used to go out for raya in big groups and would rent a mini bus.. But now? However, to make up for that, we had planned to go on a holiday next Jan.. Yippee! Most likely to Redang.. Ooh I can't wait! :) Love you guys!!

I miss my boyfriend so much.. It has been two weeks since we met up.. Initially, we planned to meet yesterday, but due to some 'technical glitch' that led to a misunderstanding, the date was cancel.. Of course i'm disappointed! Was looking forward to meet him!! Bah!!

waduh.. gue tu kepingin ketemu sama lo.. kangen bangat!!

2008-09-08T05:51:00.003+08:00

Don't know why i'm so emotional these days...

I miss them..

Sigh.. I guess as we grow older, we have different priorities.. Different set of friends... Different mindset...

I just have to remind myself all the time, that we are no longer in sec sch where we would see each other very often.. Its just that i feel sad that we seldom keep in touch.. like seriously, how often we sms each other in one month? Sigh...

Of course i'm not asking to meet or contact every single day... But.....

Sigh.. Sorry... Maybe i'm just being a bit emo right now.. Its already 0600 hours but i still can't sleep... Arrgghh..

2008-09-01T20:48:00.003+08:00

I WORE MY TIGHTS INSIDE OUT.

YES.

FROM JURONG TO APOLLO CENTRE TO ALEXANDRA HOSPITAL TO QUEENSWAY TO SIMPANG BEDOK.

HOW EMBARASSING.

-.-''

2008-09-01T05:09:00.003+08:00

Happy Ramadhan People....

Selamat berpuasa to all muslim friends... Jangan Puasa Yok2!! :)

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Yesterday, went on a date with Fir...

I had loads of fun.. Thank you my dear.... :)

Love ya!!!

2008-08-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

I'm soooo happy i got a marksman for my test shoot.. that means i'll be $200 richer! heheh...

As usual, i got so nervous before shooting that my palms were all shaking and sweaty.. Saw FI Yaakob and he recognised me! He even helped me out a little bit.. hehe.. Thank u sir!

There's one time when my laser suddenly disappear and got kanchong a little bit but i quickly use my hindsight.. kekeke..

Just very happy to clear this test shoot...

Next... IPPT...... *faint*

2008-08-26T15:22:00.003+08:00

I hate it when people called me the rich man's daughter. Cause i'm not. My father is not rich. I tried to explain to these people but they just won't listen. So let me take this chance to clear things up.

My father is definitely not rich. Cause if he is, I won't be working right now. I would still be in school. You want to know why I didn't go to poly? Its not because I'm not qualified. Its because my father told me that he can't afford to pay for my school fees as he is retiring! I have to sacrifice just to help my parents out. Thats the reason why I'm working now. I have just to ignore others' comments about me like "She's just an ite graduate" I put behind my plans to further my studies just to help my parents. I gave my parents money more than I save. I'm not complaining. Its my duty as a daughter to do that. In fact, I even told my father not to work again cause his age is catching up and he shouldn't be working now. But i wish these people can just shut their foul mouth.

People thought i'm rich or a rich man's daughter just because i owned a car. You people are stupid or what? If i'm really that rich, why on earth would i buy a picanto for? Why would i buy a small, cramp with a slow pick up car for?! Red plate some more! If i'm that rich, I would buy a BMW or Audi lah!

And for your information, I didn't ask anybody a single cent for my car. My father didn't even fork out 10 cents for my car. Every single cent is my hard earned money. Not just my car, whatever I wear and whatever I use, I paid it myself!

I'm not rich. There are times when I'm really broke. So fuck you. Don't give unnecessary comments like "You got car and you say you got no money?" or "Wah your brother also got car? So rich ah your family?"

We are not rich. We just live comfortably, within our means. We are very happy with it.

SO JUST FUCK OFF!!!!!

2008-08-25T05:40:00.002+08:00

I think i'm suffering from a serious case of insomnia..

Its already almost 6 but i'm still very very wide awake..

Arrgghhh...

Its like working on night shift...

Gosh...

2008-08-23T00:00:00.004+08:00

I miss my squad and camp life so much last night... I must be mad cause I smsed most of my squadmates at 2 in the morning just to tell them I miss them.. Kekeke...

Gosh... If i could turn back time, I will definitely want to go back to the time when I was in hta.. Those times were the best.. Better than pri sch.. Better than sec sch... So much better than ITE...

I laughed to myself when I reminisce bout those times...

Like when Ree and Dayah would always brought in sooo many packets of girls' pads to camp!

Gosh, i miss them so much!

Dayah would always jumped around in bunk.
Gowree would always be the first one curled up in bed, talking on the phone.
Aisyah forever washing something and drying it around her bed.
Alinna would be applying face cream or something.

LOL.

-I miss sharing bed with Gowree and Dayah.
-I miss looking at Gowree's messy cupboard.
-I miss when Gowree would always for comb.
-I miss asking Alinna for detergent.
-I miss seeing Aisyah with her spongebob squarepants blanket.
-I miss our bunkmates too Chitra, Amber, Mirah, Julie!
-I miss playing monopoly at night.
-I miss waking up in the morning and would always chop the first cubicle. I miss showering at 530am every mon and it would be so freaking cold that Dayah would hentak kaki in the cubicle.
-I miss the boys.
-I miss waiting for the boys at their coy and would whine and complained when they were slow.
-I miss guessing what's for breakfast.
-I miss listening to gowree's whining I can't eat yellow mee!
-I miss marching or running as a squad to parade square
-I miss seeing Botak who from the first day till POC kept fidgeting and moving around during flag raising.
-I miss Azli
-I miss Tuesday Torturing PT
-I miss Azli's when i say down you go down, when i say up you go up
-I miss making fun of Azli
-I miss the times when the five of us would 'rehearse' for Azli's changing parade
-I miss reporting sick
-I miss the MO Ting! What's your IC no!
-I miss going to class with our bags full of junk food
-I miss talking nonsense and teka teki session with A Rahman and Noor Kim
-I miss A Rahman and Noor Kim calling me Samurai Burger
-I miss the times when I would be giving miss calls to some of the guys during class
-I miss Fifi imitating the ASP
-I miss Jusri for being Jusri
-I miss Sham's Ain rabak......
-I miss Along's Ain kentut eh...
-I miss fighting over Hande with Dayah
-I miss Hizal's WOW!

You get the idea now?

Kekeke....

I can just go on and on and on.... But it will take me 5 more entries to finish....

I can't wait for another meet up session with them...!

R5/2007 is the best!!!!

2008-08-22T23:38:00.005+08:00

I'm back!!!!

Been very sick for the past few days... Bad bad sore throat, blocked nose, on off fever, and currently the right side of my face hurts so badly! I don't know what's the cause but its really painful! I hope the pain will just go away soon... :(

K time for updates!

First....

I got my hair done, again!

From this...

To this!

Kekeke...

Boyfriend has been nothing but a sweetheart... He accompanied me to the salon and waited for about 2 hours.. I felt bad... I know it must be so boring for him... But thank you dear...

And today, he woke up so early in the morning just to accompany me to send my car for servicing.. before that he waited for about 2 hours at the bus stop cause I need to go for JDHQ.. I'm so so so so sorry dear.. Really if i had known it will took so long, I swear I won't make you wait...

Really... I can never ask for someone better than Fir.. He's the only one who truly loves me... He loves me too much that he even know how many times I sneezed.. :) The best boyfriend a girl could ever ask for... Thank you for everything...

You, i love.....

2008-08-03T16:59:00.005+08:00

ICE CREAM DATE AT COLD ROCK!

Let me make it up to you. I admit I have taken you for granted. I'm sorry for everything. You know i love you.

And..

I'm glad the batam trip happened cause i think that was the last time we went out as a team...

I'm really2 sad..

Martin leaving for good.. Shafiq going to CID.. and Siti is away for 4 months...

Seriously, I'm gonna miss Martin and Shafiq...

We went makan the other day after 1st shift... Shucks.. I didn't take pic with Martin using my camera.. After the makan, TTL, Shafiq and me went to Jurong Hill just to chill... Siti wanted to join but alas, she need to work the following day...

Still remember eight months ago I hate being at CCK.. But now, the team are the 2nd best thing after R5... :)

2008-07-30T11:48:00.002+08:00

Fir is right.

Running and exercise do release stress.

Thats what i've been doing for the past few days. Running and working out. I do feel better after that.

Seriously, if i'm still a teenager, and given the problems i'm facing now, i think i would have gone astray.. Smoke, drink, that sort of thing...

Guess i still have brains..

Anyway, went to Fandi's ORD chalet last night.. Came a bit late like around 9pm.. It was awkward initially cause my time in DHQ was not that long and i'm still very shy around them.. But they were bunch of great people and we played some silly but very fun games and I enjoyed my time there... I even had Sambal Coke.. My invention.. Hehehe... It was worth the trip cause i got to watch someone berjoget zapin (read: some malay dance).. Cewah.. Hehehe...

To Fandi, Happy ORD-ing... I wish you all the best in your future endeavours... (Not sure whether its the correct spelling! Hahaha!)

2008-07-26T12:48:00.005+08:00

Tell me, how can you not fall in love with this adorable adorable little thing... Someone actually returned her and her two other siblings to post... Sigh.. I could not even bring it home.. My parents won't allow.. and i cried ok!! Last tour involved alot of cats.. I learnt alot about cats from bapak kucing, Afzal.. Kekeke...

Alright, enough about cats already..

I will blog again when I have the mood.. Feeling very very down due to some issues I'm facing right now..

Till then..

2008-07-25T22:10:00.002+08:00

happily ever after only happens in fairy tales....

2008-07-18T23:45:00.002+08:00

Question:

What do kung fu panda and me have in common?

Answer:

Apart from being cute and cuddly, we both eat when we are upset...

Ok i know i'm lame. But yah. Whatever.

Arrrggghhh!!!!

2008-07-17T20:45:00.008+08:00

Batam was good!!

We arrived there at around 1pm Singapore time and we took a cab straight to our hotel... My first impression on Batam was that everything is like bochap, like suka hati mak kau.. hahaha.. I don't know how to explain lah but thats how i felt.. Their motorists like to honk so much lah...

We checked in, freshen up a bit and then went to lunch at Putri Garden for nasi padang.. It was good.. A bit expensive though..

We then went on our separate ways.. The girls, (Dayana, Siti and Me) went to the shopping mall, looked around but none to our liking.. The only thing that attracted us was those funny2 tees which i bought two of which that cost me S$6.. kekeke...

We then proceeded to Laguna Spa for a full body massage, body scrub, milk bath, steamer for only S$30, a 2 and 1/2 hour session.. It was superb.... Er maybe except for the steamer.. Its the worst 10 minutes of my life.. I felt like i'm a red bean pau being steamed... Freaking hot... My contact lenses almost melt lah.. Hahaha.. But the after effect was tsk tsk tsk, good.. I felt so cleaned, so fresh, so rejuvenated...

Met the boys in the evening for dinner.. Waited for TL but he was nowhere in sight.. Hehehe.. So we went to eat without him.. Thanks to Dayana, we all went to Golden Prawn for seafood... But i didn't eat that much.. The rest ate like they've been starved for a month.. Hehehehe...

After dinner we went back to the hotel.. Washed up and everything till someone suggested to go to the Batam club, Pacific... 8 out of 17 of us went there and let me tell you that it was my first time clubbing..! hahaha...

I was freaking scared at first cause the club was f*cking f*cking dark... The people there were so so so so wild... Most of them were on drugs I think cause they looked so high... Turned right, people shaking their head, turned left, people shaking their head.. When i said shake, means they really really really shake lah! They even had half naked girls dancing.. So you can imagine how the boys were.. Kekeke.. I loosened up a bit after that and joined the rest dancing... It was pure clean fun.. an eye opener for me.. but i won't do that again..

Went back to the hotel at around 5 singapore time... could not sleep even though I hadn't been sleeping for 48 hours cause we went to Batam straight after night shift mah... When I was about to doze off, someone knocked on our door, and when I opened almost immediately, there was no one.. hmm.. I still think its Tan Teck Leng but of course he said it wasn't him, its hantu tetek..

(shake head).. hahahah...

I didn't go for breakfast and just stayed in the room.. At noon, we checked out and went to another shopping mall for lunch.. Wanted to eat A&W but could not find it.. We had lunch at Breeks and it was good too.. Freaking cheap! Everything there cost less than S$10 and we ate and ate.. Worth every rupiah.. kekeke...

K lah, bla bla bla bla.. We reached singapore at around 6 and home sweet home!

Pics will be uploaded at multiply soon ok! Cause i'm lazy to post it here! bye!

2008-07-10T19:13:00.002+08:00

I really want to try cable-ski and para sailing during our trip to Batam... Two more days and I can't wait for the trip.. And I'm so glad that Dayana is joining me!! Thanks babe for taking leave just to accompany me... Really appreciate it.. Know that i can always count on you! :)

Next month I really hope there will be no leave freeze as I really really badly want to go to Bangkok with Dayana... Fingers crossed!

I really want to go on a trip with both Gowree and Dayana.. That would be so fun! Holidaying with my two bestest friends...! After watching the movie Duyung, the more i want to go to Tioman or Redang or Bali! Shall we babes? Hehe....

K, bye!

P.S. Its sad how you can stoop so low just to make yourself look cool. Maybe you are doing all those things to spice up your pathetic life. But then again, I don't think you have a life to begin with which is why you resort to copying every single thing that others do. So unoriginal lor! Bluek!

2008-07-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

The lady who's working at Sweet Talk near my place pissed me off big time.. I've observed her attitude for quite some time now and I seriously think she deserved a big tight slap on her face... Really.. I mean, if you don't like working there, then quit lah.. don't take it out on innocent customers like me! She really had a major attitude problem lah, with her stuck up face.. Like I owe her a living... I vow not to buy any more bubble tea from her again! Even if the strawberry soda freeze its too hard to resist! I don't care!

I'm on MC today... Been sick.. My tummy acting up again.. I'm still thinking whether I should go to hospital for thorough check up... Its very leceh lah... I don't want to go through all those X-rays, scans, blood and urine test again... and answering very uncomfortable questions... will see how lah... I hope i'll be ok soon...

Batam trip coming soon... Bangkok next... Woohoo....

2008-07-06T22:35:00.001+08:00

I'll be strong.

2008-06-24T12:21:00.002+08:00

Seriously, i think i'm done with blogging...

Too lazy to blog...

So many things to say.. So many stories to share but so lazy to type..

Till my next post..

Goodbye!

2008-06-08T21:27:00.002+08:00

The past week has been quite tough on me..

But then again, everyone makes mistakes.. This is a learning experience...

To that friend of mine, everyone has problems, but you just have to stand up and face it.. not running away from it...

weren't you the one who asked me to be stronger?

met up with dayana and ain yesterday..

babes, yesterday wasn't enough lah! lets go shopping again ok!

i really miss my ree! i want to meet her soon!

and also, i want to go out with him.... i can't remember when was the last time we went out, just the two of us...

16 more days!

2008-06-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

Finally! MSK Ops is over and i'm going back to the team tmr! Yayness!

IPPT will be at the end of the month.. Definitely will spend my off days jogging and train for it cause there's no way I want to fail my ippt...

I thought of joining _______ 2008.. so far only one person know about my crazy idea.. haha.. I've already registered but I don't know whether I will back out at the last minute...

I want to go shopping!!!!!!! MAMI JARUMS, another outing please!! And i'm so craving for starbucks!

and I miss you so much.. I really do...

Till then...

2008-05-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

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