Ok i can't take it anymore..


Ever since the first day i stepped into the npc, i felt out of place... My first day of work was sucky.. till date, i still don't feel welcome.. haiz.. :(

does the problem lies with me? i know i don't really leave a good impression coz i'm a bit blur2 and you know s-l-o-w.. haiz.. i felt soo left out there..

i just want to be myself.. where i can talk freely, without feeling uncomfortable or awkward.. however i wasn't treated that way.. maybe bcoz i'm new and some of them have been there for years.. but i'm tired of being like a loner there! now i've become like one quiet girl and its not like me lor!

i miss my squad.. i miss them so so much.. all the jokes and laughter.. haiz..

when ali and kak noon visited me the other day, i felt like hugging and crying to them.. sobz..

i don't regret joining spf.. its just that, i only want ppl to treat me like COLLEAGUE not just a girl who's doing SOJT..

all i need know is a good cry.. coz i'm feeling so terrible...