What's up with youths these days?

The way they dress, act and everything, its like getting bad to worse...

Most of them are malay.. Such a disgrace...

I may not be your typical religious muslim girl...

But at least i'm mature enough to know what is right and what is wrong...

I don't drink, i don't smoke and i don't club...

Ok, zouk was an exception... My teammates wanted to go thus i tagged along... Yah honestly, i was curious to know what's clubbing like... But i don't make clubbing as my weekly routine... In fact, i don't even know when i will ever step in a club again... Its not that important anyway....

Anyway....

Was watching Cucuku Sayang the other day.. There was a scene whereby the granddaughter mixed with the bad crowd, smoke, had a tatoo... I candidly asked my daddy, what if it's me who behaved that way.. He kept quiet.... From the look on his face, i know that he is thankful that i didn't turn out like that... :P

Maybe i chose the right set of friends.. Like dayana and ain.. They are the ones who stick with me during my sec sch days... Which reminds me of something....

I was a victim of a bully...

Like seriously...

I was bullied by a classmate throughout my sec sch years... She really made my sec sch life a living hell.. She would ganged up with others and ostracized me... When she got bored, she would find a new target, befriend me again but only to repeat that cycle over and over again...

I still remember how she called me names...

I still remember how she just opened my bag and upon seeing me, she would just throw everything inside my bag on the floor..

I still remember she would confront me in that gangster-like attitude..

I still she would just ripped off my table deco..

She was that mean.. I can just go on and on and on...

The sad thing is that, never once did i stand up for myself...

I guess i was naive, timid, scared to that...

What she did to me really affected me badly.. I became very paranoid.. Always thinking too much... Was afraid to make new friends.. Which explains why i was like a mute in ite...

Sigh...

I guess i went through a lot when i was younger...

Not only in school, but at home, at my first work place...

Everywhere...

It all made me what i am today...

People can call me whatever they want...

Budak kecik lah, itu lah ini lah...

But hey..

You don't know what its like to be me...

And i still have a loooonnnnggg way to go...

Wait wait wait....

Whatever i said earlier, does it even link?

Hehehe....

Never mind...

K lah, till then...

bye!!

IF YOU CAN'T DO GOOD THINGS.. DON'T DO BAD THINGS...




2005

Boy: I don't have the programme sheet

Girl: You can have mine..

Boy: No thanks

Girl : How do you pronounce this word : allegedly

Boy: Oh its pronounce as this. Asal kau? Nak bodek ngan cikgu eh?

Girl: Ape yang bodek? Merepek seh. *turned away*

Boy: Hahahahaha kau slenge ah...

Girl: Aku ada pinjam buku agama from library

Boy: Kasi aku pinjam ah..

Girl: Ok..

Girl: Handphone aku kena curi seh! Kat johor!

Girl then told the story to the boy and he listened with attentively...

Girl: Aku beli handphone mcm kau tau.. Nanti ajar aku camne nak pakai eh..

Boy: Boleh! No problem!

Boy: Dah lama seh aku tak tgk wayang..

Girl: Kau nak tgk?

Boy: Boleh ah... Nak tgk cerita batman..

Girl: Jom ah tgk sat ni.. Aku teman...

Boy: Kau jangan lambat eh.. Kau lambat aku go ngan ******

Girl: *merajuk* kau nak gi ngan die kau pegi ah!

Boy: Sorry aku lambat..

Girl: Will you stay and watched the fireworks with me?

Girl: You have a gf before?

Boy: Yes but we broke up after two weeks

Girl: Hahahahah...

Girl: Why is it always me talking?

Boy: I prefer to listen *smile*

Girl: I know you treat me as a friend, but i think i like you..

Boy: Can we meet tmr?

Girl: For?

Boy: I need to meet you to talk..

Boy grabbed girl's hand

Boy: K lah lets try it out

Girl: Please don't accept me out of pity or just for the sake of it..

Boy: I did not choose you out of pity nor for the sake of it. I chose you out of respect, love and admiration.. I hope our love lasts forever.. I know my love for you will never fade away...

2009

Girl: Are you happy?

Boy: Yes...

Girl: Are you happy being with me?

Boy: Of course i am..

Girl: What did i do?

Boy: You always make me happy.. You always make me smile... I love you..

Girl: What do you like most about me?

Boy: Everything..

Girl: I said LIKE MOST

Boy: I can't choose.. I like everything about you.. The whole package... Luar and dalam..

Girl: Ok

Boy: Sayang, no matter what i love you, and i think i have proven how much i love you.. you mean too much to me for me to let you go so easily....



I love you too.. So much baby... :)









Every problems or hardship we faced, it is only temporary....

Cause one day, we will get out of it..

The most important thing is to stay strong....

But....

Its easier said than done.....

I just have to find that strength in me...

And i know when I find it...

I will be able to move on.....


P.S You appeared in my dream last night.....




Team Alpha KL Trip 20-22 January 2009.

The long-awaited trip. God knows how tired we were before the trip. Their CSSP Project, Covering Team C, My ethic seminar, we were all busy .. But finally, we took a break and enjoyed ourselves there even though there were a few 'dramas' which happened there... So here are some of the visuals... Pics courtesy of Siti, Afzal and Bernard...

Day one

We boarded the bus from Boon Lay Shopping Centre


The journey took about 5 hours.. So to kill time....



We reached KL at about 1330 hours and we checked in at Berjaya Times Square


And went to have lunch at the Chicken Rice Shop


It was after this that a 'drama' happened.. I shall not go into details.. Anyway, me and siti did our own shopping while the boys had their own plans.... We, malays, then met up in the evening for dinner....


We then walked and walked some more...

we then checked out the hotel's pool

Before we ended the night, abg hadri, siti and I caught a late night malay movie called MAUT. So menginsafkan!


Day two

Woke up at 0830 hours and had breakfast...

After breakfast, the rest of the Malays then went to Masjid India...

I stayed in the hotel to sleep.. and only met up with the rest at noon to go to the theme park!

After dinner, we then proceeded to Zouk....



Day three

After breakfast, it was free and easy... And I accompanied Siti to find a gift for her sweetheart...

And ended our KL Trip with a dosage of Starbucks! keke...

Actually there are tons and tons of pics.. Some of which can be viewed at Siti's facebook... Maybe when I have the time, i will upload it in my multiply..

It may looked as though we didn't do much there but seriously, at least for me and Siti, we both had fun...

Looking forward to our next overseas trip!

k, bye!




Jodoh, pertemuan, ajal maut, semua di atas tuhan...

This may come to a shock to some people, especially my friends..

Firstly,

Fir is a very nice and the perfect bf a girl could ever ask for.. But i guess its fated that i can't be with him and my jodoh is with someone else...

I didn't see this marriage proposal coming... I was really surprised, trust me... Haiz.. But i've thought about it.. I consulted my parents and they agreed... I guess all of this are fated...

I will be getting engaged on the 22 February 2009.. I would definitely invite all my closest friends...

You might be wondering who is this guy? I never mentioned about him in my blog before.. But i think after this, you would be reading more about him.. Fir, i'm really2 sorry....

Scroll down to see who he is....








I wish i can just vanish into thin air...




Happy 10 years of friendship to my two best friends Dayana and Siti Nurain.

We've been friends for a decade now and I thank god that our friendship is still going strong.

I love both of you very much. And diyana, i love you as much k!

Dayana, I cried reading your latest blog entry. I am happy and proud of you but I am really sad cause i know i will definitely miss you so much.

Lets meet up before you fly to New Zealand k...

Will blog again soon...




I had tons of funs yesterday..

Met up with my mamis besties.. We went to have lunch at Mad Jack before proceeding to Botanical Garden to have a mini photoshoot.. I must say that dayana's photography skill is excellent.. She made us look even more prettier than we already are.. Hahakz! But seriously she's very good.. You're there lah sister! ;)

The photos turned out to be great... Just go to her blog to view the pretty babes, i mean, pics! kekeke... After the phototaking session we went to Dempsey Hill for some ice cream treat and then to Marina Barrage where we had a good talk.. kekeke... It was very fun...

We ended the night with nasi lemak at clementi road... And ain i hope you like the present we got for you.. Sorry a bit late.. hehe...

I love you all lah girls... We should meet up again soon... Picnic potluck yah?


P.S I miss you.




M.F

I really apologized for this mistake i've done... I guess this is one of the biggest mistake i ever did in my life.. I seriously do not know how to make it up to you.. Trust me, i never want this to happen.. I hate to be in this situation but i guess i'm stuck in it.... Anyway, i really need to thank you for your understanding.. I have nothing but respect for you... I'm ashamed of myself for doing this to you... I'm really really sorry.... I hope the heart-to-heart talk we had yesterday helped us.. I never want to hurt your feelings.. I already explained the situation i faced and i really thank you again for being so understanding, so forgiving... Please give me time and I promise things will go back to normal soon... I'm really sorry... I meant it when i said that my feelings for you never change.. Its just that when it comes to the matter of the heart, its unpredictable.. Sigh.. I'm sorry.. I know i've hurt you deeply...

M.A

I can feel that you are avoiding me eversince i told you that.. I'm really sorry for jumping into conclusions and I have to admit that it was childish of me to scold you in that kind of manner in my previous entry which i had since deleted... I hope you understand that i never want to play with your feelings whatsoever.. I meant every word i say.... Remember when we had the talk about its better to be with someone who loves you more than you love him? I guess i did just that.. I hope you also know that i'm always here for you whenever you need me cause that's what friends are for... Please don't treat me differently just because i'm attached or what... Maybe we should not be as close like last time but nonetheless, i would always be here for you.. I'm sorry if i ever hurt you with my words....




Selamat Pengantin Baru my dearest brother...

Ain doakan andi dan kak dian berbahagia selalu dan semoga berkekalan hingga ke pintu syurga, insya-allah....


Although sometimes i feel like punching your face (kekeke) i know for sure that i'm going to miss you like hell....

take care newly weds.... Can i have twins nieces or nephews by raya this year? kekeke...









Some questions has been left unanswered..

I hate it...





Who knows... 2nd time's a charm?


Pray for our happiness...


I don't want to be with anyone else... I appreciate you now more than ever... Thank you for being loyal and faithful to me even when we were apart...

I thought i could be happier with someone else... I guess i was wrong....

Fir, you're the best.

Ever.

I love you.

I really do.

And i never stop loving you.




Time check: 0115 am

And i'm still working! k not exactly working but doing some work-related things...

Its going to be a pretty busy month...

And my bro is getting married this weekend...

I am mentally drained out... I can't wait for the team kl trip on the 20th...

k k i need to get back to work now....

till then...

bye!




SOME OVERDUE PICS.

DATE: 14.12.2008

VENUE: MARINA BARRAGE